Here’s a joke we don’t reference enough! I didn’t even remember this little gem from “Krusty Gets Busted!” This episode from season one is so formative and important to the framework of the series and really dives into more character development than the series had done at that point. The first season often gets ignored or remembered as “boring” these days. It’s never considered when we lament the “best seasons,” but this episode in particular is so smart and funny in its almost relentless cultural jabs. It is a reminder of why I love marathoning this show. We all have our beloved memories of “how it used to be”, but if we don’t continually revisit the series, we miss out on the very greatness that sucked us all in as children. #everyepisodeever #simpsonsmarathon #fxx #thesimpsons
I’m super into this new documentary about how smart I am. #artimitateslife (at Regal Cinemas L.A. LIVE)
A high energy snuggle fest because we were told we can’t fuck on stage. See me and this team of loons at the LA Indie Improv Fest tonight at midnight! (at Oh My Ribs! Entertainment)
"No girl, punk’s not dead, but discrimination is gonna be."
Stock Photo Studs is basically my inner monologue when I’m shopping for picture frames.
Doomed to never see all the films I want to see. Still trying to chug away this list before I complete the 3rd Annual Chrome Clit Awards, but chances are I’ll watch maybe 10 more and then have to throw in the towel.
Since moving to LA almost two years ago, I’ve struggled with a handful of health problems including the worst bout of depression I’ve ever had. A few months ago after a lot of therapy, Celexa and support from loved ones, I finally stopped doing things like crying at the 99¢ store when grandmother types complimented my hair.
Since August I’ve experimented with trying to write & talk about that time in which I actually related to Lars Von Trier films. Sometimes I’ve been able to do it in a funny way, but other times I start to make a joke about it and then my throat closes up instead and I reprimand myself for ever trying to leave the house when I could just nest in a pile of polyester clothing and watch Robocop for eternity.
Now is a time where I’m feeling like I could maybe be on stage again regularly so I’ve been forcing myself to do so. It’s actually going really well, and not once have I curled into the pouch of my sweatshirt and disappeared like a cartoon kangaroo.
In fact, I’m going onstage tonight at the Upright Citizen’s Brigade for the first time in awhile and I’m really excited about it. What I love about the UCB long form is it’s commitment to grounding ones characters and scenes in honesty. Since I started studying at the theater in 2011, finding the truth and honesty of the scene has been a struggle for me because I’ve had such a hard time just being able to actually feel regular balanced human emotions. As I’ve worked to pull myself out of depression, I’ve had to confront it head on and push back on the shame of it. In learning how to confront my own feelings honestly, I find myself becoming a stronger comedian with a fuller presence.
So as I continue to stay above the tide of bleakness, I am trying not to hide anymore and I’m trying to push myself creatively again because I think it’s the only way. The internet still makes me feel gross a lot and sometimes I never write back to people I love who reach out to me because I get overwhelmed by how much I miss them. But as I work to ground myself in reality and find the honesty in my own life through writing and performing, I’m hoping the rest will get easier, too.
You can see me at UCBTLA tonight at 6pm and hopefully more places soon.
xo - LTB
If you want to pursue comedy, that’s great. Congratulations and I hope you find some success in it.
But you need to learn how to handle disappointment real quickly or you might as well stop now and find something that’s more stable, both emotionally and financially.
Over the last few months,…
Dustin is a good friend of mine from college and has been doing stand-up a couple years longer than me. He’s my go to when things feel shitty in comedy-world b/c he’ll agree that things are 100% dumb and shitty, but then encourages me (and others) to slog on. Anyone can pretend life is grand and their career is going just as planned (and everyone in LA does just that), it’s a lie, we know you’re just grandstanding but it still makes us depressed people feel more horrible. What everyone in comedy needs is an existential friend that will agree all living is suffering, but then decides to keep at it anyways. That’s inspiration. Also Dustin is one of the few comics I know that has experienced the true hell of performing alt comedy (for lack of a better less cliched description) in a Midwestern sports bar after the home team has lost.
All that to say, I’ve have trouble keeping perspective lately, but thanks to a few good friends (and this blog post) I’ve decided to keep performing instead of escaping to Northern Saskatchewan to live off the grid.
And so, we begin Women’s History Month with Elizabeth Cady Stanton.
OUR MONTH STARTS NOW! Smash the patriarchy quick we only have 31 days!!!